Hey guys š Iām new to blogging, I thought I could share the traumas I most feared just before we finished and getting ready for our convocation.

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Itās the final month of bagging a degree. Yeah. Itās the final stages of everything. Iām not the first but even if Iām one of the most, I wonāt be the last either. However, Iām a mf legend!
Everyone is happy, all smiles and high emotions, the conquerors, the conquered and allā¦. But me?? Lol
Iāve never been scared all my life than I am now. Iāve never been so scared in my entire life than I Iām now.
They said āHappiness is freeā lol. Whyās it that no one wants to wake up from such a delima?? Whyās it difficult to fathom that āTemporary Happinessā is free! Yāall should wake up! Wake up to that reality. Ever lasting happiness has a price!! Ffs
This fear isnāt mere. This fear is tied to a purpose, the anxieties, expectations? š
Thereās a saying that goes āTo whom so much is given. So much is expectedā!
The level is done. I defeated the devil. Yeah! one believed. The honest rumors of my failures, the drastic change in course. I almost gave up. Deferment was plain but God got me. šŖš»
I did scaled through. Weeks without food? Days without any sight of brightness? The fake emotions and tyranny endured. Iām a mf gOD! I did this! I did it!
I still donāt believe everyone out there has a story to tell⦠but all ever needed was a moment to vent this!
This type of life isnāt what I envisioned. This type of life isnāt what was deliberate, maybe some sort of karma handling prompted by bad decisions? Yeah I made it!
Iām F**king SCARED! The Anxieties are breaking. Iām bleeding! š©ø
Iām no sadist. But I have no one to talk to I have no one to get comfortable with. No one.
Winning in loneliness is breaking, the effects aināt encouraging, Iām becoming who I once castigated I need change I need to be HAPPY!
Itās 4yrs yes! The challenges, the devils and levels were all expected, clearly defined and avoided but Now!?
Now the labour world? The realities of Adulthood? š
Iām just a young boy with dreams. Bigger than any mindset. Thatās on me. Itās all I have.
Iāve got God I believe.
I wrote this to the future. Iām still writing to an expected date.
CONGRATULATIONS SET OF ā22 š„
A LETTER TOWARDS THE END!
Draxler. āØ
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Covenant Draxler
I am a website and web application developer with flutter, Dart, JavaScript, HTML-CSS. Project manager and sound engineer.