Hey guys šŸ‘‹ I’m new to blogging, I thought I could share the traumas I most feared just before we finished and getting ready for our convocation.

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It’s the final month of bagging a degree. Yeah. It’s the final stages of everything. I’m not the first but even if I’m one of the most, I won’t be the last either. However, I’m a mf legend!

Everyone is happy, all smiles and high emotions, the conquerors, the conquered and all…. But me?? Lol

I’ve never been scared all my life than I am now. I’ve never been so scared in my entire life than I I’m now.

They said ā€œHappiness is freeā€ lol. Why’s it that no one wants to wake up from such a delima?? Why’s it difficult to fathom that ā€œTemporary Happinessā€ is free! Y’all should wake up! Wake up to that reality. Ever lasting happiness has a price!! Ffs

This fear isn’t mere. This fear is tied to a purpose, the anxieties, expectations? šŸ’”

There’s a saying that goes ā€œTo whom so much is given. So much is expectedā€!

The level is done. I defeated the devil. Yeah! one believed. The honest rumors of my failures, the drastic change in course. I almost gave up. Deferment was plain but God got me. šŸ’ŖšŸ»

I did scaled through. Weeks without food? Days without any sight of brightness? The fake emotions and tyranny endured. I’m a mf gOD! I did this! I did it!

I still don’t believe everyone out there has a story to tell… but all ever needed was a moment to vent this!

This type of life isn’t what I envisioned. This type of life isn’t what was deliberate, maybe some sort of karma handling prompted by bad decisions? Yeah I made it!

I’m F**king SCARED! The Anxieties are breaking. I’m bleeding! 🩸

I’m no sadist. But I have no one to talk to I have no one to get comfortable with. No one.

Winning in loneliness is breaking, the effects ain’t encouraging, I’m becoming who I once castigated I need change I need to be HAPPY!

It’s 4yrs yes! The challenges, the devils and levels were all expected, clearly defined and avoided but Now!?

Now the labour world? The realities of Adulthood? šŸ’”

I’m just a young boy with dreams. Bigger than any mindset. That’s on me. It’s all I have.

I’ve got God I believe.

I wrote this to the future. I’m still writing to an expected date.

CONGRATULATIONS SET OF ā€˜22 šŸ„‚

A LETTER TOWARDS THE END!

Draxler. ✨

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Covenant Draxler

I am a website and web application developer with flutter, Dart, JavaScript, HTML-CSS. Project manager and sound engineer.