So Far,So Good…..or bad,worse,terrible

I wasn’t supposed to write this initially even with all new year buzz but then I saw this on a friend’s status and I thought why not,it wouldn’t hurt. It was more like a last minute decision. Every status or story I’ve viewed so far has mostly emphasized on how 2022 has been the golden year, the one that had brought peace, self discovery and development et cetera. For some the year hasn’t been as planned but was good enough. Very few has a terrible year. Personally, I’m not the type to set goals to achieve as a new year begins but never have I ever wished to go back in time to do such. Usually I’d rather just let things work out for me. To be sincere I’ve never thought about setting goals. I have never felt worse about myself than I have this year. Formerly when I feel bad I console myself with the fact that at least I do well in school work. This year was different. I felt like a total failure. I had an exam January this year and which I failed woefully. Believe me when I say I have never failed that much in my life before. I was not an all A’s student, I was some A’s and B’s but never and F (okay maybe in maths) but I never really failed as in failed. My university’s second year results remain the worst I had ever had in my name . I could not even talk . I remember when i started crying hysterically in front of my friends, I was at my lowest. But you know what I had admist all that ? Great friends. Even when I didn’t feel like being around anyone they still came around . One thing all the problems brought to my life was a stronger bond with my friends. I learnt how to value friendships. I became more open,thoughtful, intentional,pro-active, responsible,mature ,humorous, spiritual and so much more. This epistle would not have a happy ending if I don’t talk about my wins. I had a better result the next semester and I’m seriously working on myself more. I’ve really had ideas about things I would love to do for myself but haven’t because of one thing or the other but hopefully I’d get it done this 2023.

To everyone that didn’t have the best of year, that failed, lost someone or something material or abstract, gave up, broke down, hated themselves, were at their lowest, passed through a lot, I just want to say that you are not alone and there’s light at the end of the tunnel. However dark the tunnel may be, there’s a tiny ray of light if you just hang on . 2022 wasn’t the best of years for you, might have been the golden one for your friends even to the extent that it made you question yourself or even look down on yourself but I can assure that if you can just hang on a little longer, everything would suddenly make sense and fall into place. Also don’t loose yourself admist all the crises. You’d be happy you didn’t eventually.

One thing I’ve learnt so far is no matter how bad things turn out, you’d be fine eventually. It might seem like it’s taking years but as long as there’s life, hope dey. 🥂 To 2023 the year of getting IT done !

Finally did this, yayyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!