The worst phase of my life has ended.

The title you just read is not clickbait. This is the story of me, a B.Sc agriculture student who does not want to be an agriculturalist ( yes, the irony hit me at my face while writing this). A middle-class boy who has an invisible pressure to earn money so that my parents can take some rest from this rat race. So What should I do? Focus on my agriculture studies to be in an environment I know I will not like or Try to take some different path but will that path guarantee me financial success( which my parents needed the most).

This was me exactly a year ago. Now I know you all have read many inspirational stories and listened to many ted talks that this is very easy for all of you to guess what choice did I make a year ago. I did a lot of research, brainstorming and finally made the decision according to my gut feel. I thought making the choice was the most difficult part but Oh! Boy, I was so wrong. To be on that path is the most difficult thing. So after I decided that I will take some different path and explore it but I will continue my degree along with it ( my master plan, as it is any different from millions of other Indian college students).

I tried a lot of things. I learned some basic video editing and edit the videos of the events for my mother's school. I also took a social media marketing course and completed it. I did some social media campaigns for my relative's business and shops but that fun element was missing for me in those things. After that, I made two basic websites for my brother's business with no code tools. There I enjoyed designing the website part but that feeling or that kick was still missing. Now I wanted to explore this software development world that everyone was talking about. People were earning lakhs and it requires no degree. I had to give it my 100 percent or maybe I would end with no options left but my bachelor's degree.

So when you search on youtube that you want to learn software and web development and want to crack these big tech companies. Youtube will tell you to learn Data Structures and algorithms(DSA). So I started learning DSA. Here also the kick was missing but the dream of earning lakhs just kept me going. I completed 60% of the syllabus after that I took a break for one week. Then I discovered my passion - FRONTEND DEVELOPMENT. I just got a course on frontend development from my friend and I was on a break so I decided to take a look. Day by Day I become obsessed with the whole field. Remember I told you when I was making websites for my brother I enjoyed the designing part there. That was it.

This is the summary of my whole year. It was my worst phase because it had a lot of uncertainties. I did not have any direction in my life. Every day was similar to me. I also did waste a lot of time because of demotivation. I spent days and days on just Instagram and twitter. When I saw my parents doing a lot of hard work then this guilt of not providing them any comfort comes along and stayed with me. But that phase has finally ended.

Now I have something which I can do for hours and hours and it does not feel like work at all. I have a clear roadmap for me to achieve all my dreams. Along with this I will learn the german language, write blogs, make videos on youtube, learn in public, and a lot more this year. This year will be the turning point of my life in every aspect and I wish the same for all of you.

Happy New Year 2023 Cheers!