Only Her and Infinity

Have you ever thought about something so big that your brain just stopped working for a second? That happened to me today. I was watching a YouTube video by Veritasium. It was about infinity, yep, that endless thing we all kind of know but don’t really get. The video talked about different types of infinity (yes, there are types!), like how there are infinities you can count (like 1, 2, 3, ...) and infinities you can’t count (like all the numbers between 0 and 1).

Sounds wild, right? At first, it was fun. I love this kind of brainy stuff.

But suddenly, I paused the video.

My chest felt tight.

My mind got cloudy.

My heart was… not okay.

It was like my heart became heavy. I couldn’t think clearly as I was trying to visualize (as I always do for literally everything) the number line up to infinity. That thought alone made me feel… weird. Uncomfortable.

Let me explain. Infinity is hard to understand because it has no end. You can keep counting forever, and you’ll never reach the end. It’s like trying to pour the ocean into a teacup, it just doesn’t fit. Now think about a person who makes you feel that way. Someone so important, so deep, so everything, that your heart can’t fully explain it.

That’s when it hit me. Infinity wasn’t just a math idea anymore. It was… a feeling. And it reminded me of her.

So, I stopped. And I typed something out loud that was sitting inside my head:

"Only her and infinity make me feel this way."

She wasn’t someone I saw every day. There were no movie-like scenes or big declarations. But she made me feel the way infinity did:

Beyond what I could grasp.

Forever.

Beautiful.

Scary.

Endless, even in short moments.

You know that feeling when a song plays, and it hits too close to home? Or when someone says exactly what you were thinking? Or when a memory shows up in a smell, or a photo, or a piece of food?

That’s what I mean. She made ordinary things feel huge.

A meme.

A voice note.

A shared silence at 2AM.

She understood things about me without asking. And when we spoke, it felt like the world paused, just a little.

And when it ended… I didn’t know where to place all that feeling.

Infinity is not just about size. It’s about depth. It’s not something you measure. It’s something you feel, like standing at the edge of the ocean. Or staring at stars long enough that you forget where the sky ends, and you begin.

That’s what she was for me. She reminded me that some things don’t need to last forever to feel infinite.

Infinity and love, especially real love, can both make you feel like you’re floating and falling at the same time.

And you know what? Even mathematicians, the people who deal with numbers all day, feel this too. They use logic and rules to understand infinity. They don’t try to feel it; they try to work with it. That’s how they stay calm. But me? My heart got involved.

So yeah, it wasn’t just the math. It was the reminder that she is my infinity. And thinking about either one of them makes my heart feel something bigger than my words can handle.

Final Thoughts

I didn’t expect a YouTube video to mess with my head like this. Or that I’d end up writing about love and infinity in the same sentence. But here we are.

Sometimes life reminds you that not everything has an answer. Some things are just meant to be felt.

Only her.

And infinity.

And me, still somewhere in the middle, trying to make sense of it all.

And maybe…
That’s enough.