Resilience in Motion: My Journey So Far and the Road Ahead

Hi to everyone who is reading this, and I hope you’re fine 🙂

I'm 24 and want to share my journey from the last few years. It has been very challenging. Looking back, I realise that things could have been easier if I had focused more on what truly matters.

But we know that we can’t change the things that happened yesterday, but we can change things that happen tomorrow by changing ourselves.

I completed my Undergraduate in June 2022, and I got two job offers during my final semester, one of them is from a leading MNC in India, and the other is a startup and is much related to the Networking domain. So my eyes were all on the MNC, and I didn’t want to go to that startup which is related to a different domain, and I rejected that offer and waited for the MNC onboarding. Guess what, that MNC kept me waiting for 2 years, and that is my biggest mistake.

Not only that, in those 2 years I tried to learn different technologies and I couldn’t manage to master even one thing, which is another mistake I made.

One nice thing that happened during those two years was that someone I never expected would come back into my life did. Despite my doubts, I held onto a glimmer of hope for their return. They stayed for a year, and now you might be wondering what happened afterwards. People change when they move to different cities and countries and meet new people. Regardless of that, I’ve found my way back to being myself in the end.

Sorry, I don’t want to talk about that more because it’s not worth it.

Around June 2024, I decided to pursue my master’s degree in the United States and began planning for it. I prepared for the required exams and, after a lot of struggle, managed to complete them, though my scores were below what I had hoped for. Still, I was fortunate to receive admission from a decent university.

However, another major challenge soon appeared: how to manage the funding for my education. After many discussions with my parents, they stood by my side without a second thought. They made the tough decision to put our house documents in the bank and applied for an education loan. After a long and tiring process, the loan was finally approved, and with a sense of relief, I booked my visa interview slot.

The day finally arrived — I travelled to Delhi for my visa interview. I hadn’t prepared as well as I should have, but I had done my best. On November 21, 2024, my interview took place. And guess what? Another unexpected twist — I was rejected.

They didn’t even ask me about my university, my course, or any of the details I had prepared for. I was left shocked. On my way back from the consulate, one thought kept repeating in my mind: How am I going to tell this to my mom and sister? I kept thinking about how they would react, how much this would hurt them.

With a heavy heart, I broke the news to them. As expected, they were deeply saddened. Coming from a middle-class family, taking such a big step had already required enormous sacrifices. We invested everything we could — even beyond what we could afford — just so I could chase my dream. Through it all, my mom and sister never let me feel the burden; they only showed me love and encouragement.

In the end, it felt like I had failed them — and myself.

After returning home, I was completely lost, not knowing what to do next. But once again, my parents stood by me and gave me another chance to pursue my dream.

Unfortunately, I couldn’t find an available visa slot anytime soon, so I had to defer my application to the next intake. After a long wait, I finally managed to book a visa slot for April 24, 2025 — but it was still months away. I didn’t want to waste all that time doing nothing.

My mom suggested that I move to Hyderabad for a change of environment and find a job, something that could refresh my mind and also keep me occupied. For the first time, I truly listened to her advice without any second thoughts. I packed my bags, moved to Hyderabad, and found a job.

It was a night shift role with a very low salary — barely enough to cover my hostel expenses. From whatever little I earned, I could only manage to pay for our home’s electricity bill. That was the only small way I felt I could give something back to my family. Even though it felt like the worst phase of my life, I knew I had to stay strong and keep moving forward.

Finally, the day arrived — my second visa interview, this time at the Hyderabad Consulate. And once again, I was rejected.

I was completely blank, almost numb, as I made my way back to my hostel from the consulate. Somewhere deep down, I knew I had to accept things as they were. I called my mom and sister to tell them what had happened. They listened patiently and said, “Don’t be sad. You did everything you could. Some things are not in our hands. Accept it, take some rest, and think about what’s next.”

Even during this painful time, they were the ones helping me not to lose myself in sadness. But after the call ended, I couldn’t hold it in anymore. I cried loudly, alone in my room, letting out all the pain I had been carrying inside.

Dark thoughts started creeping into my mind (not about suicide — but a deep sense of hopelessness). I stood in front of the mirror, looked at myself, and asked one simple but powerful question: “What’s next?”

At that moment, only one thing kept running through my mind: How can I repay all the debts? What should be my next step?

Deep inside, my desire to pursue my master’s degree was still alive — stronger than ever. Everything else was already set; it was just a matter of taking the right step forward.

My mother, as always, stood by me and said, “Take whatever step you believe is right, but move cautiously. This time, you have to make it happen — and I know you can.” Her words gave me both strength and responsibility.

After thinking deeply, I finally decided what I needed to do next.

For the next few months, I have decided to completely focus on mastering new technologies, building real projects, and preparing myself both personally and professionally.

Meanwhile, I applied to universities in the UK and received admits from some good institutions. This time, I want to give it my best shot. I am determined not to fail. I will complete all the required processes carefully and plan to apply for my UK visa in the next couple of months.

I truly believe that this time, when I call my mom and sister, I will finally have some good news to share with them — and it will all be worth it.

And that’s it..!

I am not writing this to show off to everyone about my story, and I want to do this because I want to tell myself what I have to do next and want to go through what happened in the past for one last time and move forward.

I know everybody have their own problems and their own shit to face and for this is the shit I have to face..!!

SO, the plan is set and in the meantime I'm executing as well and I have to change some things in order to make some things happen and I will change that things.

All the best to everyone who is pushing themselves every day to become something.

Thanks for reading it..!!

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