A Calling Not A Failing

When wrapping up Connect prayer session ( April 30th ‘25 ), I was telling the two ladies in my group “it is already done”. God kept telling me to say it. They were both so welcoming of these words and I could tell were waiting for more so I continued saying, “as far as I know, whatever we go through -like pastor said at a sermon some weeks back, the time in the wilderness is time of preparation. For greater blessings. It’s needing new wineskins for new wine because the old cannot contain the new, the old would burst”.

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Their reaction was…not something I’d have expected. Not to me speaking about God. Not this early. Definitely not while I’m literary still so unsure on my own feet and struggle to string two words together. I’ve been totally wrecked! I barely know what’s right or wrong as a Christian. I’m just following what God prompts me to do. Still…here we were. One clasped her hands together and was tearing. The other was completely blown away and kept saying “wow…” on repeat. Then there was me in the mix eyeballing the entire spectacle like what just happened. These guys have been with KC longer than me…-

Massively surreal and made me realise...”huh, that actually had nothing to do with me”. Yes the material I’ve been consuming lately gave me the knowledge to regurgitate. But…that was God, His words and His wisdom through me.

That’s not all. On my way to Connect there was a moment I was the medium for the Holy Spirit to bless someone. It was a decently dressed boy of around 27, helping an old feeble person to cross the road in the pouring rain. Nevermind jumping in without hesitation, he was the only person to jump in. Almost a do-good-er cliché IG reel ( the glow of the traffic lights in the night rain, industrial zone neighbourhood adding that steampunk aesthetic ). The Holy Spirit was telling me to pray for this boy.
I tried dismissing it…it’s not a big deal. Good for this boy for having a good heart and yeah I hope he will inspire others to be kind wherever he goes but that doesn’t make him so special and I was exhausted. I wasn’t sure how I was gonna last till the end of the Connect Night. The Holy Spirit, was insistent. So I prayed. When I did I felt His power move through me to this boy. It was insane! I physically felt power leave my body and I was brimming with Him. I’m blessed to feel the presence of the Holy Spirit and I’ve dabbled with the elements before in my heathen / pagan era but this was something else. Tangible with a sense of Heaven and Earth colliding.
Guess the question for discussion at connect today… How have we felt the Holy Spirit works through us? [ Gotta source*. ]
I was stunned throughout I couldn’t say a word during discussion.

Here’s a bit of context : Of late, everything has been highly volatile. It’s been a full throttle mad roller coaster ride. “Unprecedented” doesn’t come close to describing it. It left me feeling like I fell off a rocket going 10,000 mph, fell on the middle of a highway and kept getting hit and run over by truck after truck after truck- this can go on but you get the idea. So I do not feel anywhere near being anything that can be of any use to Christ. Sure, when I recover I can be of service but I wasn’t kidding when I said I’m unsure of standing on my own feet. I honestly am.
But Jesus couldn’t care less. I struggle to grasp it and process any of this but…He didn’t need me to ready to touch other people through me. He just did.

It got me thinking…we miss the whole point. We think struggle is bad. We think breaking is bad but it just might only be the start of something greater. It could be that He has to put us through the grind so we come out more able. We didn’t fall, God was only getting us ready for His calling.

When I read the following passages I want to take the highlighted words metaphorically. A physical fall representing a spiritual fall. No, not as falling in to sin, but maybe spiritual warfare. A place of higher density where you are challenged to hold your own and your truth. My favourite bit is this…it is immediately followed by AND. “And” as in a conjunction…meaning this does not end here. There is work yet to be done…God has started something and he is working on it. His work is not yet finished!

What appears as falling is actually preparation for the calling.

Just how cool is that…come on!

Check this out.

³  As he neared Damascus on his journey, suddenly a light from heaven flashed around him. ⁴  He fell to the ground and heard a voice say to him, “Saul, Saul, why do you persecute me?”

⁵  “Who are you, Lord?” Saul asked.

“I am Jesus, whom you are persecuting,” he replied. ⁶  “Now get up and go into the city, and you will be told what you must do.”

[ Acts 9:3-6 ]

¹ When Abram was ninety-nine years old, the Lord appeared to him and said, “I am God Almighty; walk before me faithfully and be blameless. ²  Then I will make my covenant between me and you and will greatly increase your numbers.”

³  Abram fell facedown, and God said to him, ⁴  “As for me, this is my covenant with you: You will be the father of many nations. ⁵  No longer will you be called Abram; your name will be Abraham, for I have made you a father of many nations. ⁶  I will make you very fruitful; I will make nations of you, and kings will come from you. ⁷  I will establish my covenant as an everlasting covenant between me and you and your descendants after you for the generations to come, to be your God and the God of your descendants after you. ⁸  The whole land of Canaan, where you now reside as a foreigner, I will give as an everlasting possession to you and your descendants after you; and I will be their God.”

[ Genesis 17:1-8 ]

See I love this soo much…Because it takes me back to these words I’ve heard, man makes plan but God has His plans for us [ Proverbs 16:1-25 ].

Often we fall short in establishing our own potential but the Lord who sees beyond and knows all things about us has greater things for us in store. We are so shortsighted that way because I am pretty sure like 99% of the time we add that fullstop to our story before the And. Just how unfortunate is that. Super funny too. Like everything just right there in reach and with your name on it! But you the one like “nah, I’m done. woe is me”. I can picture God shaking his head in dismay…wanting to smack some sense into us.

A little attempt here to drive home the point. God’s Anointing → Time of Waiting → Blessings Received :

• Abraham leaves his homeland and waits years for his promised son. Is tested time and time again.

  [ Genesis 12 ]

• Moses spends 40 years in the Midian dessert after fleeing from Egypt

  [ Acts 7:29-30 ]

• David was anointed by the Lord as a young shepherd boy and spend years of hiding and fleeing from King Saul.

  [ 1 Samuel 16:11-13 ]

• Joseph had prophetic dreams as a young boy, was rejected by all 7 of his bothers, enslaved and imprisoned for years. [ Genesis 37 ]

• Paul spent time away in Arabia and three years in Damascus after encountering God before starting his missionary work [ Galatians 1:17–18 ]

I mean even Jesus prepared 30 whole years before He started ministering.

I feel that we need to keep coming back to this. Remind ourselves that nothing is ever working against us, it is all for us. The blessings are yet to come. God is a generous, gracious and loving Father.

♡ Yas.