An engineer Mother's journey

I was wondering which blog I should start with … sharing my journey felt the best one.

Ever wondered what it's like to be with a kid? Having all those dreams and thinking about how to start your day at work, showing up with the same energy and drive you once had.Trying to focus despite part of you thinking of the baby the whole day. I used to be the person who has put her career first no matter what. A few years later, I understood that I am bigger than my job. It's tempting to be successful, isn't it? Taking risks no matter what, but when you listen to the most common success stories, they always mention regretting not spending much time with family. It's hard and challenging, isn't it? Which decision will you make? Some women decide to put their careers on hold, and some others cannot think of that, maybe because of the amount of responsibilities or sensitivity of their work or because they want to stay financially independent, or they just don't wanna lose that side of them. It's hard to regain your full energy and shape right after having a baby, and that's normal and natural.

When it comes to me, I decided to do both. To work hard on achieving such balance. I was lucky to have flexibility at work that allowed me to work remotely a few days a week. I have also had the chance to be working at night as well. And guess what: the night shift was perfect for me. My baby will be sleeping while I'll have all the time to prepare my coffee (my best friend), take my notes and to focus on work with no interruptions. That time of the day is the best for me because I am a person who is called “Night Owl”. This refers to someone whose energy levels, focus, and productivity tend to peak in the evening or late at night. And I find myself compensating for what I have missed during the day.

I’ve learned to value my time much more. I stay deeply engaged during work hours so that every moment away from my baby feels truly worthwhile . I am so lucky to have my partner by my side, who has been almost a full-time daddy, so I can work and carry on what I love to do. He has always admired the fact that I am a dedicated and energetic woman who has big dreams to catch.

None of us is the perfect example; each one of us has her own life storyline, mission, challenges, and within each one of us, a fighter who is capable of doing a lot.

I was genuinely afraid to miss any unique or sweet moment with the baby … Guess What? I haven't. I saw her first silent smile, I heard her first Ma, I saw her first step , her first tooth, and all of the other amazing moments. So don't be afraid to miss that. If you choose to put on hold your career, that's very noble; if not, that's okay. Do what your heart and mind tell you, what matters is that by the end of the day, you will say “I did it “

Was doing both worth it? Is it the right choice or not? I did what I felt was the right thing to do, but it's harder than it sounds. I wanted to be an example for my baby girl, who sees me committed to both my job and family. She’ll grow up seeing her engineer mom work hard every day, not just at her job, but at finding her own voice, learning new things, and making a difference. She’ll learn that success isn’t just about getting things done, it's about building confidence, staying balanced, and always speaking up her own ideas. By watching her mom, she’ll believe that she, too, can follow her dreams while staying true to who she is.

Till today, I think I am doing well. I want to tell my baby girl that being an engineer [women] is so challenging and one of the best jobs. Imagine a mother managed to resolve the issue, persuade a client or team of her idea, show up for her team, even while battling the mental chaos within, and keep moving forward. I have always admired the engineering field, and that hasn't changed at all. In fact, I believe that's what I am meant for and I will not stop fighting for that until I become what I always wanted to be.

This is my very first blog that I found the closest to my heart yet I will post more often and share what all these years of absence were about . Life is about growth. Each one of us has his own mission and I am back to sharing knowledge, experience and ideas that I came across during this period .