Give Yourself Permission to Choose

Ethan ZhangEthan Zhang
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Writing - English Practice

📅 Date: 2025-06-13 ✍️ Type: Free writing / Reflection


Hi there. Today is Monday, June 16, 2025.

I’ve been thinking about buying an iPad to help improve my English and read books during my free time. I’ve spent a lot of time researching online, trying to understand whether an iPad truly fits my needs. I compared different models, looking for the perfect balance between value, functionality, and risk. Honestly, I’ve poured a lot of time and energy into this decision—probably more than I should.

Over the past few years, I’ve built some positive habits like running, reading, practicing English, and most recently, writing. I’m confident that an iPad could support and enhance these routines. It could make my learning more immersive, my writing more enjoyable, and my free time more productive. But somehow, I’ve spent three days struggling to decide which one to buy. Maybe deep down, I don’t fully trust that I’ll use it as I imagine. Or maybe I’m afraid I don’t truly need it.

I don’t know why I tend to get stuck in indecision for so long. But that’s enough. It’s time to listen to my heart, make a choice, and move forward—even if it's the wrong one. Mistakes are part of life. Just do what you feel drawn to, and trust yourself.

Have you ever struggled with decisions like this? Feel free to share in the comments—I’d love to hear your story.

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Hi there! Today is Monday, June 16, 2025.

I want to buy an iPad used to improve my English skills and read books on it when I have some free time. I gian many information about why I should have one iPad over intenet, and finger out the turly situations which I want to use iPad. Compare with each version of it, to hope to buy a perfect device, get a wonderful device with less money and risks. I really spend many time and energy to searching and compareing, make sure that everything is perfect.

By the way, I had built some positive hobites for several years like running, reading, improving my English skills and recent of wirting. It's pretty sure is that iPad will help me a lot and give me more experices to enjoy my routine and give me more movations to do that brilient work. But It's really take too many attention to chocie which one should picked up. Day by day, this is the 3th day I strugged with it. Perhapes I don't belive myself will use it as well, or I don't believe that I really need it.

I don't know why I always strugged with choice so long each time. But enongh. Ask my heart serirously, choose one and buy it, even if that's a bad choice. Give a chance to make a wrong, It's OK! Just do what you want to do, and trust youself!

Do you strugged with some choices? Feel free to tell me in the comment.

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