I Am Not My Mother… But I’m Bleeding Where She Did

I didn’t write this just for women.

I wrote it for anyone who thought they’d break the cycle

only to realize they were standing in it, quiet and bleeding.

Sometimes, we don’t become our parents.

We become the wounds they never got the chance to heal.

I used to say, “My story will be different.”

I admired her strength. I witnessed her sacrifices.

But I also saw her pain

and I promised myself I’d never carry it.

I thought awareness was enough.

Until I started noticing the same wounds.

Not the same scars.

But the same bleeding.

I watched her pour and pour

into people, into peace, into holding it all together.

And somehow, I learned to do the same.

Different context.

Same pressure.

Same silent exhaustion dressed up as strength.

What I once observed…

I now embody, without meaning to.

I called it maturity.

I called it strength.

I thought I was evolving.

But sometimes, what we call growth

is just survival in prettier language.

Smiling while unraveling.

Helping while empty.

Showing up while sinking.

Different season.

Same script.

This isn’t her story.

But somehow, I’m walking in her shadow.

New choices. New voice.

Same ache. Same war. Same quiet unraveling.

And it hit me:

You can know the pattern…

and still find yourself repeating it.

Not out of weakness

but because it was woven into your becoming.

I am not my mother.

But I’m bleeding where she did.

Not in the same way.

Not for the same reasons.

But in places only I would recognize

because I’ve seen her cry there too.

This is how inheritance works sometimes.

Not through blood,

but through silence, sacrifice… and sorrow.

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